Loving you made me feel better, somehow or other, which I have not
been able to understand, but it did. It was a feeling unrequited and that was
something that was clear from the beginning, I always knew that he would not
notice me. I cried for each letter of his name as many times as I wanted and
more, I dreamed too many times and I created illusions filled with empty words,
but I was happy. Perhaps it was all the bad moments than the good one but I was
happy, and so I was. I was happy every time I imagined him by my side, every
time I thought I could hug him, every time I thought I could see my reflection
in his brown eyes , every time I wanted to have him, whenever swore I heard my
name from his lips, whenever fooled me myself ... yes, I was happy.
And suddenly one day everything changed. I was happy knowing I'd never
get him back but from one day to another I had him. He dragged his ass for me, he
was interested in how I was feeling, what I was going through and wanted to get
back to me, touch me, feel my scent and breathe near him. Until the day came
and it was better than the illusions that both together had imagined, the
desire flashed, we wanted to cuddle, together, we laughed and had fun. He spent
the whole night stinging, raging and making me laugh. It made me happy, until
the end of that night. I was so happy and so scared that it was a sign that was
falling into his trap.
Finally it was like every other time, always. Same story all over again.
That night was the start and the end of the short set of stories. The thing he did
not realise that night was that, it was the end of the story. No more lies, no
more missing you, nothing. Just. Complete. Silence.
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